nmah6503.xml

nmah6503.xml

born-digital

story

yes

no

2004-04-20

I was at working that morning providing tech support to Casio customers when one of my customers didn't completely hang up his phone, so I just stayed on the line and in the background I could hear that he had the news on, and I heard something about a plane and the WTC. A very good friend of mine had moved there the previous year and last I had heard he worked at the the WTC, I had no Idea that there was more than one building, so I got off the phone and went and told my supervisor. We got out our Casio T.V's and the radios and listened, we thought it must have been an accident, but I was still concerned about my friend that was there. As we were watching, we saw another plane hit and couldn't believe what was happening,after that no one in the building recieved a call,the whole world must have been glued to their tv"s and all I could think about is where is he, is he ok, I have to get ahold of him, I drove home and as I was driving the chaos began,every gas station had lines backedout into the road and every place I drove by gas was higher and higher, I think the highest I saw was around $5.00, all I could think about is what if something happened to RH, there is so much I would like to tell him,things I haven't had a chance to before.I don't smoke but I had to pick up a pack of cigarretts to calm me down. I cried just thinking he may be gone, as soon as I got home I emailed him and called his wk# and his cell,, no calls were going thru , the circuts were overloaded,there was nothing I could do but wait to hear back from him, so I went back to work and heard about 2 other planes crashing, I called my grandmother to tell hes in case she hadn't heard, she hadn't. Everyone though the world was going to end,the stores were running out of bottled water, flash lights,batteries and some food. Where was he? All I could think of is I never really got the chance to really tell him how much he means to me and how much I need him in my life. Several hours passed and he finally called work and he could only talk for a minute,I was so relieved I could barely talk, I told him I was so relieved he was ok,and I cared about him and to be safe. Later I found out his company had moved across the river in NJ a few months previous. I was in shock all day and all I could do was watch every news flash that came on the tv, I don't think I slept that night.

The people in my life are more prescious to me and RH knows all my feeling and how deeply I care for him,at least I can feel good about telling him what I should have long ago. Security is everywhere and nothing will ever be the same again, things are going to be harder for my daughters generation and I treasure my time with her more and appreciate the little things, the dishes can wait!!

Its not what should be remembered, its who should be remembered,the childern who lost a parent that day, the children who weren't born yet who will never know their fathers,the families of those who lost their lives trying to protect others,the people on the planes who knew they were going to die and couldn't do anything about it,those who the last time they saw the person they lost they were arguing and didn't get to say I love you one last time.

Yes, I had flags all over, the stores ran out of anything that was red white or blue.