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2001-12-20

Thursday, December 20, 2001 9:41 PM
Families Pain due to loss of &nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp


How can anyone say how much someones pain is worth and whose pain is greater?
I lost my daughter &nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp , her body has not been recovered as of
yet. I keep hoping for some closure or a great miracle that she walk in the
door. Since this horendous tragedy I have been unable to cope with normal
life functions. &nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp is my first born and has two remaining siblings who
are terribly devastated by this. My son lost school for this and than lost
even more because of the stress he developed mononeucliosis, he lost another
4 weeks of school. My daughter &nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp gave birth to her first child on
9-22, her delivery was not easy since she developed complications probably
due to the stress of losing her only sister, the intended godmother of her
daughter. As for myself I have not returned to work cause I can't function.
My husband is beside himself, he feels he let us down. He blames himself for
taking her to the train that dreadful day. I feel I can't be there for my
daughter and my granddaughter because I hurt so bad. My holidays are ruined.
I suffer from anxiety and depression. Do you no what it's like to go to a
store in hopes of accomplishing something and you have to run out cause all I
think of is &nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp ? I attended the meeting last night because I thought it
might help since I haven't been into Manhattan since I picked up the flag and
urn, but I left in discust I can't help but believe that her life is worth
less because she didn't make a great salary. It was graet for her she only
worked for &nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp for a little over a year. She graduated &nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp
in &nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp , after 4 years of hard work. Is that not worth
anything? Had she had the chance to forfill her lifes dreams she would have
been making plenty. Her intentions were to go back to school for her masters.
My daughter was to be married in 2002 to her fiancee &nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp who is now
in the police academy. They were together almost 6 years. &nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp was my
strength, she picked me up when I was down. She helped me with anything I
needed, She was a great role model to her sister and brother . They truly
looked up to there sister. That is all gone now and so are my dreams of her
wedding , her children, my grandchildren and anything else she would have
accomplished in life. My daughter touched so many peoples lives while in
college she worked in &nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp as a cashier, when people heard that &nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp
was missing they sent condolences I had no idea that so many people knew her.
There cards were a comfort to me in one way knowing that strangers to me knew
how good my daughter is. This is just a bit of what is on my mind, had you
known &nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp you would have liked her from the start. I don't envy your
position and I hope you can make people comfortable with your decision on the
worth of there loss, but as I seen from the meeting the only people that will
be o.k. are the ones that have earned the big bucks and had years till
retirement. As I see it and have felt from the beginning, my daughter is not
important she had no husband, children nor was she a policeman nor fireman
but had not her life been cut short by a tragedy that should have been
prevented she would have been a wife and a mom. My daughter does have a
family that loves her and needs her. I have lost a parent and 2 siblings in
my lifetime and the pain than was so bad but this is something I don't think
I can handle the painis the worst pain imagineable and only those that go
through it would know, so again please tell me how you can tell me what my
pain is worth?

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2001-12-20