dojN002516.xml

dojN002516.xml

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2002-01-07

Monday, January 07, 2002 3:48 PM
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My son was killed at the WTC. We keep hearing about how the wife's and their children are going to be looked after. I am a parent and not next of kin.
Let me tell you about my grief.
I can not stand in any line for more than a few minutes. If I try to do this I could have an anxiety attack.
I can not shop for food and then wait on line.
I have had problems at the dentist where I could not drive back home because of the attack. At the doctors office I warned them about what happens to me and they did not keep me waiting.
I can not stand in line at the bank without having problems.
Last Friday night we went out for a pizza with friends. The place was crowed and when we sat down my hands were shaking. I picked up a glass of soda and had to chance hand real quick because my right hand was shacking. This problem that I have developed starts in my right hand. That is the warning sign.
I cry alot of the day.
I have nightmares about my son.
This problem was not there before 9/11.
I have had to stay at the bank for almost two hours because of an attack. I had to sit down on the floor of a supermarket.when I have had the anxiety attack. I call pills and do take them when I feel this coming on. The problem is that sometimes I do not catch it in time. I have had the first aid people 4 times in the last few months.
When I was driven to Liberty State Park by Marlboro's police dept, on our trip to ground zero, we had to stop at the first rest area because I was having one of my attacks. Some of the other parents have the same problem.
The titnutis that I had started in mid march of last year has gotten much worst since 9/11. The ringing has gotten much worst because of the stress. There in no cure for this. I have to try not to be stressed but that is not possible.
Our lives now and in the future have been ruined by the events of 9/11.
We will require on going support to deal with this. We feel that the government has forgotten about us. This makes it worse. We feel that we should be part of the process. Our other sons and daughters should also be part of the process. Our sons and daughter were raised by us. They have been taken away by the acts of 9/11. Do not make it worse then it already is.
I started a letter to my son &nbsp&nbsp&nbsp&nbsp and I am sending it to you. Reading it will help you understand what it is to lose a son the way we did.
You can contact me if you require any more information.
Thank you for listen. I hope you can help us, all parents and sons and daughters.

Thank you


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Morganville NJ

2002-01-07