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2002-09-11

i was at home with my daughter who was then only 9 months old. i was watching the today show when it was interupted with news of the first crash. as the news went on i was witness to the second crash. then news of the third and fourth crashes was aired and i was terrified. i got on the phone to call my mother and as i heard her voice i cried. i cried because i was sad, happy and also guilty at the fact my mom was still with me when so many families were missing their loved ones. i tried to reach my boyfriend and was unsuccessful. finally the phone rang and it was him. then my heart sank because he told me he was in the hospital. my first thought was another plane crashed in boston but, it ended up being a work related injury. i told him i loved him and his baby girl loved him and we would be waiting for him to come home to us.
the main thought that went through my head that fateful morning was...how am i going to raise my baby girl in a world that has total disregard for human life? all i could do was hold my daughter tight, kiss her, and tell her over and over again how much mommy loved her and everything was going to be okay. in reality though i didn't know if anything was ever going to be okay again. when my boyfriend finally arrived home i hugged him and kissed him. i told him that i loved him and he said he loved me too.
september 11th was an emotionally draining day for me. i morned with the rest of the nation but i tried to keep my composure for my daughter's sake. when it was time for her nap though i just let it all out. for the whole 2 hours my daughter slept i sobbed. there was no need for all of those innocent people to be taken from their families and friends. i hope that they get every last one responsible and punish them to the fullest extent of the law. i want them to know that we are a strong nation who will not live in fear. we will overcome this pain and keep on going because that's all anybody can do, just keep living.